When everyday we're runnin' in circles Such a funny way to fall Tried to open up my eyes I'm hopin' for a chance to make it alright
When I wake up, the dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home If nothing is true, what more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you
Show my cards, gave you my heart Wish we could start all over Nothing's makin' sense at all Tried to open up my eyes I'm hopin' for a chance to make it alright
When I wake up, the dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home If nothing is true, what more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you I am still painting flowers for you
I heard everything you said I don't wanna lose my head
When I wake up, the dream isn't done I wanna see your face and know I made it home If nothing is true, what more can I do? I am still painting flowers for you I am still painting flowers for you I am still painting flowers for you
-All Time Low-Painting Flowers
"I want my life to be the same like it used to be.When I didn`t have anything that could lead me away from my path,from my future,mu life...
But year ago it all changed,I lost my true meaning and my heart.I was blinded and I couldn`t see clearly the things that messed me in deeply.
At first it was all good,happy and it felt something so nice I had forgotten.And when I got pulled in real deep,all hell went lose.People,who I knew so well,changed so much that I didn`t know them anymore.And people I didn`t knew at all stayed with me to the very end.
I tried everything,I even acted differently but it all wasn`t enough...it wasn`t.And so it was beginning of a massive pain in my heart and in my head.I knew I would get hurt but I didn`t know it would happen with me and so quickly.
Now 6-7 months have passed and am I still the same person I was before?
Nope,I still have this pain but it`s no so strong anymore.Every day and night it grows out of me.I will get stronger in my head but my heart needs time as always.
I miss some old things about me but I know that was old me,I have to get used to the new one.I am not talking about the way I look but the way I feel inside.
Sometimes it is easier to be me but sometimes it is easier to be with me and I know it get hard most of the times.I miss those feelings that I had before I met a person who tricked with my head and my heart.Maybe it all was real but I kinda feel it was so fake and so nicely played that I couldn`t understand what was going on.
Yes,I still think about that person who made me feel like I am everything to her and Yes,I still do care about that person but it is different now.I know that she thinks I haven`t changed at all.Well she knows that I have changed my looks always but not inside.Only my hair,my ears and my stile changes and yet she doesn`t think that my personality and my attitude changes,but it has.But here she is so wrong.I have changed so much because I have met so many new people.And there is one new person who likes me as I am not that who I wanted to be and who she wanted me to be that I couldn`t never be.
This girl makes me think differently and always makes me talk about everything I kinda hold inside.And beacause of that I speak out whats on my mind and it lets me figure out stuff.
So many questions needed answers and now I have them,kinda.I need to get my head my heart fixed cuz if it doesn`t happen soon enough I am gonna lose control."
-Sulpsu diary 2007
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BYEX
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